Tuesday, April 10, 2012

I married a man who redefined love in a healthy way!

What can I say?  Steve is the love of my life and of that I am sure!  I don't have even a shred of doubt as far as that's concerned.  He has loved me completely without holding back and  that restores my faith that real, true, deeply rooted and unconditional love exists and that I get to experience it from him!  I'll keep it real...I'm not the same easy to love person that I used to be since I got my plethora of diagnoses.  That really can be a game changer for many couples.  I sometimes think that he might have a better shot with a woman who isn't "broken" but then the thought occurs to me that he stays because he loves me and it doesn't feel like he stays with me out of some sense of obligation to me.  I will always be grateful to him for still finding me worthy of love despite all of my flaws.  

He has been a trooper all the way through my sickness and has made it his priority to shelter me as much as he can.  He is home to me.  It might sound a bit hokey, but there it is.  He is my rock when I find that I just can't keep my chin up and be strong.  He never hesitates to step in and become my wall when I need that extra protection.  I'll admit, I'm much more fragile at times than I would ever want to let anyone know but with Steve, I can break down and allow myself to be fragile and vulnerable and I know that what I'll get from him is love and support.  Most men might be tempted to either shove me and my SLE & friends baggage out the door or just completely ignore my needs, but not Steve.  Steve is the best man that I know. 

The more time that I spend with him, the more I say to myself "Whoa!  This guy is the best guy ever!" and it comes from the heart.  From the first time that I met him, I knew that he was something different and that was most definitely a change that I wanted to make!  I find more things to love about him every single day and somehow that helps me feel better on an emotional level.  

He's a blessing to me.  A gift.  He lets me break down when I need to and he's my biggest supporter.  He knows what I need sometimes without even asking.  I love these things about him.  He makes me laugh even if I might feel like crying and he really talks to me!  I don't mean just superficial talk that some people have, but deep conversations that make us think.  Actually, I feel like being his wife makes me a little smarter! 

I wish that there were more people like my husband in the world because he is phenomenal and every person should have a mate that makes them feel as loved as Steve makes me feel.  I didn't really know what love was until I met him and the feelings that I have for him are so much stronger than anything that I've ever felt for people that I'd dated in the past.  When we are just sitting around talking to each other, sometimes I get so overwhelmed with how much love that I have for him that I feel like my heart might just grow out of my chest!!!

He's worthy of love!!!